❤ ♡ DEPRESSED 15 YEAR OLD HATE LIFE :( ❤ ღ?

so someone i was so close to a women was everything to me helped me in everything, promised to call me but didnt dont say she forgot i know hte reason y she didnt, bec. im younger than her n ppl will take wrong impresion long story im 15 female, and its been about 4 months im islent i cant trust anyone im hurt, i mean im crying so much n cant concentrate n wen i go to bed i hug my teddy bear imagining its her n telling her my problems n wish i listend to hers or else i wouldnt have lost her maybe :( i think she went to get married to a diff. coutnry and shes not coming bk she left the school anyways I CANT TRUST ANYONE, my mum she doesnt understand me, my dad is kinda abusive physicaly,emotionaly n mentaly, my sister never been like a older sis to me, my bro and i dont talk we dnt get along, i dont really have friends jst it sucks :( who should i trust other than writing everything on my diary? its killing me :( i cant hangout wiv friends except like once every 6 months :( i beleive in god, pray to him n everything but who can i tell? if i speak to a teacher shell tell the headteacher, even the women i trusted she back bit me, she was my everything :( im agirl n she was my sister and a motherly figure i dnt wana love or be emotionaly attached to anyone anymore.