Anyone tell me.... what is this paragraph about!!!!!! and do you agree to what it means.. I didn't understand?

Beyond those aculated thoughts and wishes was myself . I am now inaccessible . I tried so many times to build by my hope a path taking me there where I was but unfortunately it was completely demolished by the fingers of time .However my determination went on towards the impossibility of giving up .So , I threw away that desperation aside and held those tears hanging over my eyelashes for a while .I started to work hard but being reached there wasn't an easy mission . I had paid for it a lot though I failed at last to figure out where I was.